When Ainsley was 18 months we got pregnant again and I was determined to have a normal pregnancy and birth. I listened to all my friends share their stories of taking their babies home right after giving birth and how they ate so well, grew fast-I wanted that so badly.
On May 2nd, 2007 our Harper Elise was born via-c-section and everything went as planned. She came right home, ate perfectly and gained weight just as a baby should. I was so happy to get that "perfect" pregnancy and birth.
So I thought we were done having children after Harper. Both girls were healthy and our family seemed complete but then as Harper grew and started walking I just wasn't ready for her to be our last. After nagging Mike to have just one more, we got pregnant very quickly with our third.
The pregnancy was going great early on, I felt better than I did with my girls and then we moved right after my first trimester. We settled in nicely, made friends quickly, I liked my new doctors and had no reason to think anything could go wrong.
But then it came time to receive my test results for my afp screening done at 16 weeks. It had been over a week and still no word but my monthly appointment was scheduled for the next day so I thought I'd find out then that everything was normal.
That night something made me go to the Baby Center website and click on the Down syndrome pregnancy boards. I read where women were nervous because of their screening results. I started to wonder about myself and my own results but then shut the computer thinking all was fine.
The next day at the doctors I asked the nurse for my results as soon as I got into the room. She looked in my file and said they were back but they needed to be looked at by the doctor but that everything was probably fine. I waited and waited for her to return and then I started to envision a little girl, all dressed up like my girls playing but there was one thing wrong-she had Down syndrome. I had this terrible feeling and I just knew the news was going to be bad.
So the doctor finally came in and made small talk and then finally she got to my testing results. She told me that my results were showing a high chance for Down syndrome but that it was only a screening and not diagnostic. She didn't want me getting upset because there were false positives.